Pouching Off and On

It is a quiet Wednesday night before Thanksgiving. HKB is asleep and AWB is watching some On Demand Winnie the Pooh so that I can type this up and cruise the 'net.

I am so looking forward to a day of nothing, eating and visiting friends we don't see enough. We invited ourselves to Christy's and Mike's and I bought very expensive liquor to compensate for the crashing. I am exhausted. Just as I decided not to leave the big F, DF is leaving for IBM!!! I told him to keep me in mind, I may just call his recruiter....This is after a day in NYC and basically grinding meetings just to get the contract signed for this project.

AWB
We visited the doctor's on Monday to see what is going on with AWB and the food issue. She has been storing her food on the side of her mouth for HOURS. Dr. M immediately said, "Oh, pouching, not that common but it happens." The moment the phrase came out of his mouth, I felt so much more relieved. At least it is something that other kids do and there is a name for it.

HKB
HKB's dad is going on hospice and we are all really sad, though I think that he said goodbye to his dad already. I can't imagine what shape he must be in and when I saw him in August, he looked very thin and almost like HKB's grandma Becker. It was hard to look at. So it can't be long now and I am not sure how we are going to do this with my upcoming schedule. HKB is definitely frustrated with his mom's thinking but it didn't take that long for everyone to be on the same wave length about what kind of care his dad should have.

I think I have managed to make myself deny that his dad is going to die. I've known him more than half my life. Never had a great relationship with him but he is the fulcrum of his mom's life. And JYW is right, her world is going to be destroyed. So I haven't realized the full sadness and loss.

Thanksgiving
And in the backdrop of this sadness, it is difficult to celebrate tommorrow's Thanksgiving. At least I am not so scared as I was when Baba died. But there are so many things to be thankful for:
1. Relatively healthy but butter ballish
2. AWB and HKB are fine and doing great
3. I have a job that is okay and pays very well
4. We have an excellent nanny who loves my girl
5. My mom is healthy and doing fine
6. I have been able to keep Christy as a friend even though she moved miles away
7. Kristen and I still chat briefly from time to time even though she is in Fresno.